Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
..
An awkward look in her face which I saw with the corner of eye startled me. I didn't dare to look in her direction, if I did it would be a less than a split second so that she would have never noticed I moved an inch. The discussion about what is real love continues. I don't want to even know what is racing through her intelligent mind.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Thoughts... Thoughts... Thoughts...
A maths paper stared me in the face as I looked at it strangely wondering if I had any clue on how to do this. Many confused looks on my face appeared and I blankly faded out into space. I thought and thought but nothing came to me. I flipped frantically through the pages and finally came to a page which was in my language. ENGLISH. All the other pages came to me as gibberish or as if I was looking at a French dictionary. Not many things I could do but to look at the person next to me confused and strangely adapted to the atmosphere of uncertainty filled the air. A thin gust blew through the dusty window, I look through it but see nothing. Then... a thought comes to me, hits me in the face like a baseball. I quickly jot down my thoughts and finish the test. Unsure of anything I had just written down. I submit the test and realize I had written all the insanely wrong answers.
The looks on my face was strangely saddened as I receive my mark for my intertextual essay on Things Fall Apart and Purple Hibiscus. Comparing the two novels showing how each author revealed the consequences of Imperialism in Nigeria.
A 6.0 out of 10.0 in Literature may be a good mark, as I look around to see many other student receiving 8.5s, 8.7s, 8.2s, 9.3. I look down ashamed. Although I do not come from Australia or have ANY english background, I still feel disappointed with myself, the level of research I had done was minimal although my friend sent me hers which she received a 8.5. I did not feel good about myself. Not untill my friend came along and encouraged me. He told me about how it is considered really great in Literature.
Nothing much else I can think of but I don't need to. I just hope nothing happens. I just wanna ask for forgiveness one more time. As I know I've done really really wrong and the consequences will be really bad but just be there for me through it all. Thank you so much once again. ILY.
Though great minds think alike, I don't think I can carry on anymore. Through the exams and tests, my nervous thoughts get worse and worse. Anxiety fills my head every time something like: I'm going to fail, I don't understand at ALL. I know it isn't thinking positively but I have nothing else to think.
I have no one to turn to but it also makes no sense because my family are always there to support me. I just feel I need someone else.
I don't have a clue on who that is. It doesn't seem to make sense.
HELP..!
I really really really pray that I can be someone in this world. Someone where my name is just said and I'm just recognized around the world. But somehow I just feel that that's not going to happen.
I just an emotional wreck at the moment and I have nothing else to think so I'm writing it down here. As I stumble across many bridges, some burn down and some I cross successfully, I may never know when I may just fall into the pit of lava waiting for me.
The looks on my face was strangely saddened as I receive my mark for my intertextual essay on Things Fall Apart and Purple Hibiscus. Comparing the two novels showing how each author revealed the consequences of Imperialism in Nigeria.
A 6.0 out of 10.0 in Literature may be a good mark, as I look around to see many other student receiving 8.5s, 8.7s, 8.2s, 9.3. I look down ashamed. Although I do not come from Australia or have ANY english background, I still feel disappointed with myself, the level of research I had done was minimal although my friend sent me hers which she received a 8.5. I did not feel good about myself. Not untill my friend came along and encouraged me. He told me about how it is considered really great in Literature.
Nothing much else I can think of but I don't need to. I just hope nothing happens. I just wanna ask for forgiveness one more time. As I know I've done really really wrong and the consequences will be really bad but just be there for me through it all. Thank you so much once again. ILY.
Though great minds think alike, I don't think I can carry on anymore. Through the exams and tests, my nervous thoughts get worse and worse. Anxiety fills my head every time something like: I'm going to fail, I don't understand at ALL. I know it isn't thinking positively but I have nothing else to think.
I have no one to turn to but it also makes no sense because my family are always there to support me. I just feel I need someone else.
I don't have a clue on who that is. It doesn't seem to make sense.
HELP..!
I really really really pray that I can be someone in this world. Someone where my name is just said and I'm just recognized around the world. But somehow I just feel that that's not going to happen.
I just an emotional wreck at the moment and I have nothing else to think so I'm writing it down here. As I stumble across many bridges, some burn down and some I cross successfully, I may never know when I may just fall into the pit of lava waiting for me.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Forgiveness.
Take place in my life as I learn not to do the things which are wrong, help me through every moment and every day as I try as hard as I can. Just take control.
Sick today, and yea.. So not school which is good but being sick sucks.
I have a dream, as I hope my bad past doesn't have any effect on my big dream. i plan to live this dream to the fullest and it's not quite fully satisfied at this point in time. I really just need this to happen. If something could just breakthrough my life and if this dream comes true. I will truly be the happiest person on Earth! I will thank you so much every second of that dream. I just need happiness to take place in my life too. As it is no where to be found and nothing is seen as satisfied. Help me find a way to happiness. Lead me through a pathway to happiness. That is mainly what I want in life.
That is all I ask for. Also help me to use my hands and voice to do you good. Help me to learn instruments and sing praises to you Lord. Thank you gratefully.
With all sincerity I will sign off.
With Love. (L)
Sick today, and yea.. So not school which is good but being sick sucks.
I have a dream, as I hope my bad past doesn't have any effect on my big dream. i plan to live this dream to the fullest and it's not quite fully satisfied at this point in time. I really just need this to happen. If something could just breakthrough my life and if this dream comes true. I will truly be the happiest person on Earth! I will thank you so much every second of that dream. I just need happiness to take place in my life too. As it is no where to be found and nothing is seen as satisfied. Help me find a way to happiness. Lead me through a pathway to happiness. That is mainly what I want in life.
That is all I ask for. Also help me to use my hands and voice to do you good. Help me to learn instruments and sing praises to you Lord. Thank you gratefully.
With all sincerity I will sign off.
With Love. (L)
Saturday, May 23, 2009
HM>>
Strangely you looked at me,
You don't know how I feel
I bet that you're so free
You heavy heart like steel
Thoughts race round my head
Not a sound fills the air
I could almost be dead
But you kept your stare
Memories, they never seem to last.
The time we spent together had gone passed
But now I see,
that without you I'm Incomplete
I see you round, from time to time
With not much to say
I cover my face
but just to see yours puts me in place
Memories, they never seem to last.
The time we spent together had gone passed
But now I see,
that without you I'm Incomplete
Oh how I miss you,
Now I know that we'll never be.
But soon my sadness fades away
Knowing I'll never find someone quite the same.
This is a song I wrote, I need to learn the guitar so anyone know any good guitar tutorials online?
and I have no idea how to start a tune! :(
You don't know how I feel
I bet that you're so free
You heavy heart like steel
Thoughts race round my head
Not a sound fills the air
I could almost be dead
But you kept your stare
Memories, they never seem to last.
The time we spent together had gone passed
But now I see,
that without you I'm Incomplete
I see you round, from time to time
With not much to say
I cover my face
but just to see yours puts me in place
Memories, they never seem to last.
The time we spent together had gone passed
But now I see,
that without you I'm Incomplete
Oh how I miss you,
Now I know that we'll never be.
But soon my sadness fades away
Knowing I'll never find someone quite the same.
This is a song I wrote, I need to learn the guitar so anyone know any good guitar tutorials online?
and I have no idea how to start a tune! :(
Daily Bread..
Today, Saturday, a week of the end..
I love the weekends it really changes my attitude completely.
And also today jacob sara and stef came over it was really fun cos stef brought her wii and it was realllllly fun!!
Yea.!
But I can't help to think, if I will be someone in this world, someone whos name is recognised in this world of trechery and darkness, Maybe, just maybe it could come true from the glory of God's light. May it just shine through my life.
I am really thankful to God for all his great blessings in my life.
Proverbs 13 which I read last night was really significant for me.
It is:
1 A wise child pays attention to what his father teaches him.
But anyone who makes fun of others doesn't listen to warnings.
2 The good things a man says benefit him.
But a liar loves to hurt others.
3 Anyone who guards what he says guards his life.
But anyone who speaks without thinking will be destroyed.
4 People who refuse to work want things and get nothing.
But the longings of people who work hard are completely satisfied.
5 Those who do right hate what is false.
But those who do wrong bring shame and dishonor.
6 Doing right guards those who are honest.
But evil destroys those who are sinful.
7 Some people pretend to be rich but have nothing.
Others pretend to be poor but have great wealth.
8 A man who is rich might have to pay to save his life.
But a poor person is not in danger of that.
9 The lights of godly people shine brightly.
But the lamps of sinners are blown out.
10 Pride only leads to arguing.
But those who take advice are wise.
11 Money that is gained in the wrong way disappears.
But money that is gathered little by little grows.
12 Hope that is put off makes one sick at heart.
But a longing that is met is like a tree of life.
13 Anyone who hates what he is taught will pay for it later.
But a person who respects a command will be rewarded.
14 The teaching of wise people is like a fountain that gives life.
It turns those who listen to it away from the jaws of death.
15 Good understanding wins favor.
But the way of liars doesn't last.
16 Wise people act in keeping with the knowledge they have.
But foolish people show how foolish they are.
17 An evil messenger gets into trouble.
But a messenger who is trusted brings healing.
18 Those who turn away from their training become poor and ashamed.
But those who accept warnings are honored.
19 A longing that is met is like something that tastes sweet.
But foolish people hate to turn away from evil.
20 Anyone who walks with wise people grows wise.
But a companion of foolish people suffers harm.
21 Hard times chase those who are sinful.
But success is the reward of those who do right.
22 A good person leaves what he owns to his children and grandchildren.
But a sinner's wealth is stored up for those who do right.
23 The fields of poor people might produce a lot of food.
But those who beat them down destroy it all.
24 Those who don't correct their children hate them.
But those who love them are careful to train them.
25 Those who do right eat until they are full.
But the stomachs of those who do wrong go hungry.
It just hit me in the face yesterday the true meaning of that proverb, it really applies towards my life.
Yea, so... Jonas episode 5 will probably come out tomorrow.
I really want to hear the real song of fly with me by JB,
I really wanna watch night atht museum battle of the smithsonian or however you spell it.
Also Sonny with a chance episode 13 with Selena Gomez is coming on June 7th
A day after my birthday!!!
I really really rreally really really really can't wait for Lines, Wines, Trying Times!!
If I have to wait any longer I will blow up!!!!
I also cant wait till high school is over, I just feel there's no purpose and I wish I could just skip it and go straight to university!!
*sigh*
But time doesn't fly by that quickly.!!
"I only see you, in all that I do"
I love the weekends it really changes my attitude completely.
And also today jacob sara and stef came over it was really fun cos stef brought her wii and it was realllllly fun!!
Yea.!
But I can't help to think, if I will be someone in this world, someone whos name is recognised in this world of trechery and darkness, Maybe, just maybe it could come true from the glory of God's light. May it just shine through my life.
I am really thankful to God for all his great blessings in my life.
Proverbs 13 which I read last night was really significant for me.
It is:
1 A wise child pays attention to what his father teaches him.
But anyone who makes fun of others doesn't listen to warnings.
2 The good things a man says benefit him.
But a liar loves to hurt others.
3 Anyone who guards what he says guards his life.
But anyone who speaks without thinking will be destroyed.
4 People who refuse to work want things and get nothing.
But the longings of people who work hard are completely satisfied.
5 Those who do right hate what is false.
But those who do wrong bring shame and dishonor.
6 Doing right guards those who are honest.
But evil destroys those who are sinful.
7 Some people pretend to be rich but have nothing.
Others pretend to be poor but have great wealth.
8 A man who is rich might have to pay to save his life.
But a poor person is not in danger of that.
9 The lights of godly people shine brightly.
But the lamps of sinners are blown out.
10 Pride only leads to arguing.
But those who take advice are wise.
11 Money that is gained in the wrong way disappears.
But money that is gathered little by little grows.
12 Hope that is put off makes one sick at heart.
But a longing that is met is like a tree of life.
13 Anyone who hates what he is taught will pay for it later.
But a person who respects a command will be rewarded.
14 The teaching of wise people is like a fountain that gives life.
It turns those who listen to it away from the jaws of death.
15 Good understanding wins favor.
But the way of liars doesn't last.
16 Wise people act in keeping with the knowledge they have.
But foolish people show how foolish they are.
17 An evil messenger gets into trouble.
But a messenger who is trusted brings healing.
18 Those who turn away from their training become poor and ashamed.
But those who accept warnings are honored.
19 A longing that is met is like something that tastes sweet.
But foolish people hate to turn away from evil.
20 Anyone who walks with wise people grows wise.
But a companion of foolish people suffers harm.
21 Hard times chase those who are sinful.
But success is the reward of those who do right.
22 A good person leaves what he owns to his children and grandchildren.
But a sinner's wealth is stored up for those who do right.
23 The fields of poor people might produce a lot of food.
But those who beat them down destroy it all.
24 Those who don't correct their children hate them.
But those who love them are careful to train them.
25 Those who do right eat until they are full.
But the stomachs of those who do wrong go hungry.
It just hit me in the face yesterday the true meaning of that proverb, it really applies towards my life.
Yea, so... Jonas episode 5 will probably come out tomorrow.
I really want to hear the real song of fly with me by JB,
I really wanna watch night atht museum battle of the smithsonian or however you spell it.
Also Sonny with a chance episode 13 with Selena Gomez is coming on June 7th
A day after my birthday!!!
I really really rreally really really really can't wait for Lines, Wines, Trying Times!!
If I have to wait any longer I will blow up!!!!
I also cant wait till high school is over, I just feel there's no purpose and I wish I could just skip it and go straight to university!!
*sigh*
But time doesn't fly by that quickly.!!
"I only see you, in all that I do"
Friday, May 15, 2009
Hello Love.
I've been thinking, even though I like have nooo idea how to play the guitar, I really really really wanna learn so.
I will
and I've started to write a song
But I have no idea how it goes.
How do they do these things. Not just the Jonas Brothers, EVERY band.
It's so hard to do the things you love.
How how how how how how how how how how how how?????
Please help. Thanks
I will
and I've started to write a song
But I have no idea how it goes.
How do they do these things. Not just the Jonas Brothers, EVERY band.
It's so hard to do the things you love.
How how how how how how how how how how how how?????
Please help. Thanks
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Take You Down To The Market.
Back to the old days where I look at you and everytime you talk to me, I just feel that I have to love you somehow or someway. But your closed enterances block me in everyway from getting to you. You bright eyes reflect the bright sunlight towards me as I cover my eyes and see that you're gone.
Confusion fills my head with sorrowss but I can't stop now. I'll keep running and won't stop till I find you. Through storms I walk through the gale forced winds and through the speedy rain crashing down to the ground with great force, I won't stop till I find you.
Anyways, Junior Operatives Networking as Spies is coming out..! MAY 2ND CAN'T WAIT!!!
But.... Don't have foxtelll! so YOUTUBE IT IS!!!!!!
School has been alright I guess..
Though I don't feel the same about things at school for some reason. I just feel different about hte ways at school. Maybe it is just me or I'm still adjesting to year 10. I don't really understand. I hope that I can keep my head on staight and focus on my GOAL!!!!!
This has, been no walk in the park. And I feel like we have, fallen apart.
Confusion fills my head with sorrowss but I can't stop now. I'll keep running and won't stop till I find you. Through storms I walk through the gale forced winds and through the speedy rain crashing down to the ground with great force, I won't stop till I find you.
Anyways, Junior Operatives Networking as Spies is coming out..! MAY 2ND CAN'T WAIT!!!
But.... Don't have foxtelll! so YOUTUBE IT IS!!!!!!
School has been alright I guess..
Though I don't feel the same about things at school for some reason. I just feel different about hte ways at school. Maybe it is just me or I'm still adjesting to year 10. I don't really understand. I hope that I can keep my head on staight and focus on my GOAL!!!!!
This has, been no walk in the park. And I feel like we have, fallen apart.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Must say that I worry for you.
Finally!!!!!!! Got my Piano Tie
yayayayyaayayyayayayayyayayayayyayayyyyyyy
hahahahha
yea i really wanted it :)
Anyways, yea. Perth in 3 days or something like that.......
FUNNNNNNNNNNN :|
Can't wait till high school is OVER.!!!
so boring and lameee.
Ma Wishlist:
or
and...
or
I'm relaly tired now so bye :) *waves*
yayayayyaayayyayayayayyayayayayyayayyyyyyy
hahahahha
yea i really wanted it :)
Anyways, yea. Perth in 3 days or something like that.......
FUNNNNNNNNNNN :|
Can't wait till high school is OVER.!!!
so boring and lameee.
Ma Wishlist:
or
and...
or
I'm relaly tired now so bye :) *waves*
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Movie Marathon :)
Well, today was exceptionally fun :)
In the morn, woke up extremely early once again.. and no I don't have some sort of sleeping disorder. Then ate yummy SaraLee Cake. Then watched lots of Sonny with a Chance Episodes on Youtube at Gramp's. Really funny especially episode 2 at Fasty's.
Then BB came over and we watched 4.5 Movies lol.
1. Confessions Of A Shopaholic: Funny, a bit dumb but, generally funny. Quite a good movie I must say. NOt so expected. I hate that debt collector though.
2. The Mummy: Tomb Of the Dragon Emperor: Seen before but nice to see. I love the Yetis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want one. And the lesbian spell = lame. HEHEHE
3. HOtel for dogs: I saw the end part because didn't get to finish it yesterday. Personally I LOVE DOGS sooooo much and want a billion dogs if I could get that many. :))))))))))))
4. Legally Blonde: Funny, don;t remember much from it so decided to watch it again. All I remmeberd was"BEND AND SNAP"
lol
5. Fast and the Furious Tokyo Drift: Cool movie. Want to go to Japan again!!!
Super Tired. NIGHT :)
In the morn, woke up extremely early once again.. and no I don't have some sort of sleeping disorder. Then ate yummy SaraLee Cake. Then watched lots of Sonny with a Chance Episodes on Youtube at Gramp's. Really funny especially episode 2 at Fasty's.
Then BB came over and we watched 4.5 Movies lol.
1. Confessions Of A Shopaholic: Funny, a bit dumb but, generally funny. Quite a good movie I must say. NOt so expected. I hate that debt collector though.
2. The Mummy: Tomb Of the Dragon Emperor: Seen before but nice to see. I love the Yetis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want one. And the lesbian spell = lame. HEHEHE
3. HOtel for dogs: I saw the end part because didn't get to finish it yesterday. Personally I LOVE DOGS sooooo much and want a billion dogs if I could get that many. :))))))))))))
4. Legally Blonde: Funny, don;t remember much from it so decided to watch it again. All I remmeberd was"BEND AND SNAP"
lol
5. Fast and the Furious Tokyo Drift: Cool movie. Want to go to Japan again!!!
Super Tired. NIGHT :)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Anymore?
The Fray, John Mayer, YellowCard, Jack Johnson, Benton Paul, Switchfoot, Paramore, Myserty Jets, THE KOOKS, Plain White T's, Motion City Soundtrack, Kings OF Leon, All Time Low, The All-American Rejects, Tokio Hotel, City and Colour,Joe Brooks, Demi Lovato, Aqua Lung, Alicia Keys, The Acedemy Is..., Aha, Amber Pacific, Anberlin, BarlowGirl, HelloGoodbye, Death Cab For Cutie, Jonas Brothers, Cute Is What WE Aim For, We the Kings, Copeland, Coldplay, The Coral, The Click Five, Colbie Calliat, Cartel, Boys Like Girls, Bowling For Soup, Mystery Jets, Bleach, Blind Melon, Black Eyed Peas, Ben Folds, Ben Lee, Backseat Goodbye, Augustana, Arctic Monkeys, Angels and Airwaves, Weezer, The Ting Tings, Sum41, Jimmy Eat World, Stevie Wonder, Taking back SUnday,The Shins, Sia, Simple Plan, Rufus Wainwriight, Relient K, The Rocket Summer, Owl City, Nickel Creek, Nevertheless, Hawk Nelson, Hey Monday, Five Iron Frenzy, Thrice, Hawthorn Heights, Radiohead, The Nerd Folis.
Stuck In revival.
When You try your best but You don't suceed, When you get what you want but not what you need.
Fix You-Colplay
Must Watch:
Sonny With A Chance
Junior Operatives Networking As Spies (JONAS)
Woooopie -.- School on tuesday, what a joy....
"They get surf and turf, we get scarf and barf."
Fix You-Colplay
Must Watch:
Sonny With A Chance
Junior Operatives Networking As Spies (JONAS)
Woooopie -.- School on tuesday, what a joy....
"They get surf and turf, we get scarf and barf."
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Sing Sing Sing
I can only imagine the wildest dreams through my brain as I sleep. Although they are just a vivid thought, it could happen. If I just Keep Moving Forward. Yes, "We can only suceed if we permit God to transform us."
And that's just what I'll do.
Boston. :]
I want that Tie.
And that's just what I'll do.
Boston. :]
I want that Tie.
I'm not saying it was your fault
Although you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done
Your such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly way
Something so beautiful
That everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
I may say it was your fault
Cause I know you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly way something so beautiful
Everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh you're so naive yet so
Such an ugly thing
Someone so beautiful
And everytime you're on his side
I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me
And I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to this kite
Just don't let me down
Naive-The Kooks
Can't get that song out of My head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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